There is an enormous difference between saying you are going to do a thing and actually doing the thing. I've been saying for months that I was going to switch careers and become a teacher, but I've noticed recently that there is a difference between a teacher in thought and a teacher in action.
This concept isn't necessarily new for me; it's difficult to avoid
after years of writers' conferences telling me that if I'm not writing,
I'm not a writer. In school, you can be a "teacher" yet do little to no
teaching. We've all seen or heard about it.
Some teacher's names are spoken in a sort of annoyed whisper because
everyone knows they are employed at the school out of habit, not because
they are any good at their job.
I don't want to be one of those writers who "isn't a writer", just as
I don't want to be one of those teachers who "isn't a teacher". This
means working hard to stay away from easy solutions. In stressful times
as these, I tend to pick the easier route.
It often means putting off goals, such as when I decided to stop
querying because my life was incredibly chaotic. But Giles and I have
been planning an afternoon of querying, so I'm glad to say that I'm
beginning to steer away from the writer's easy route*.
It's easy to jump in front of a class of students and treat the space
like a giant stage for all your great ideas. The hard part is tricking
the students into using things they've learned in the past and a few new
tidbits of information to teach themselves.
I'm excited to learn to be a better teacher; I never want to be the
person whose name is attached to not trying hard enough.
Michelle didn't make anyone cry at school today.
Oh, well. There's always tomorrow.
*This is one of my personal goals :) If you're a writer and
you're not querying, good for you. If you are querying, good for you!
Everyone has a different definition of what makes them a writer. Actively
querying and getting words written or edited every
week happens to be mine.