It's funny how many authors (actually, creative people in general) I talk to that are afraid of something relating to their work. Like deathly, I-would-rather-die-than-face-this-fear type stuff. Giles talked about some of his fears on his personal blog earlier this week. Our guest for the recording session this weekend, Aaron Michael Ritchey, talks about his fears all the time if you hang out with him in person. I have a boatload of fears and insecurities, too.
Is it something to do with being creative? Is it part of just being human? I don't have an answer. But that's okay, I think. What matters is that, when we delve into the depths of our own terrified despair, that we remember we're not alone.
Even big-name creators have fears (if they say they don't, they're probably lying). I'm pretty sure everyone's looked back on something they've made and thought "dang, I could have made that so much better." Because that's the nature of the beast--we're always growing and learning, and bringing our current knowledge to past projects makes them look terrible.
My most recent Big Fear centers around submitting creative work. I wrote a piece to submit to the Rocky Mountain Fiction Writers members anthology and spent two weeks freaking the heck out. I think I might have sobbed at Michelle through text every day. I was terrified that my piece wouldn't be good enough, or that I had missed some glaring error that would have been easy to fix. Long story short: I was a total wreck.
But I did what all of us creators have to do--I picked myself up, moved on, and submitted the story. I won't know for a while yet if it was actually good enough to get accepted, but I think I'm finally at peace with that.
Sometimes, the single biggest thing we can do to expand our creative lives (and, really, our lives in general) is to face our fears and force ourselves to walk through them. Oh, I know it's scary as all get out. That's why they're called 'fears' and why it's so much easier to just settle into our comfort zones, even though said comfort zones don't lead themselves to much of anything interesting.
You want to be a creator of any sort? Pick a fear and try to face a bit of it this weekend.
Me? I'll be working on my fear that my writing will never be good enough by actually writing.
What fear would you like to try to face? How do you want to go about it? Let us know, and come back to tell us how it went!
Emily talks a big game, but she's still just getting started. Of course, having some awesome cyborg implants helps with the confidence issues. If only they would help her figure out how to be more efficient.
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